Auld Lang Syne

[UPDATE]

The sketches above were put up all over campus before the Eid holiday (from 12-27 Dec to be specific). So, I'm wondering, were the people inspired to sketch their own posters for the "We7dat ElErshad ElNafsi" posters, which can be seen below? If they were, I pity them. If they were competing with the above sketches, seriously? What do I say? Just don't do it again.. You're putting yourself to eternal shame.

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I was walking down a hallway in college with my friend after class today, and I stop dead in my tracks at a billboard of eye-torturing sketches.

Why?! My first though was, "This is too funny." Now, I think it's ridiculous. We have a clinic in our college, and the doctor or nurse or whoever only shows up once a week. We have a counseling office where no one knows the answers to your questions. Why add to the challenge?I'm sure we'll be fine whether finals or no finals.The only places I appreciate are the Student Affairs offices in the English Department and our hangout (where I can b****, moan, and get therapy sessions from my friends or extra nice professors whose offices we conquer with time). I think it's unnecessary. Really.

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Finally! It's the end of December, which seems like 31 + 5 extra days. It's so BLEKH! It's breakup, depression, stupid decisions, pressure, anexiety month. My part time job as a therapist becomes a full time job, not that I mind. So, YAY!

I don't have resolutions yet. I have to come up with at least one. I'm hoping 2008 is THE year. I feel like I've become more of a person than ever. So, basically, I'm ready to spend more time on polishing up the person I have become and set out on my mission to devour books and acheive my goals. Wait! I came up with a resolution. Try not to refuse giving books to people I know personally who ask to borrow them. Now, if you're the kind that doesn't return my babies, don't ask. Please and thank you. Anyways, so I fell completely head over heels in love with myself in 2007. I can't really pinpoint the exact moment of epiphany, but yeah. This year has been great. I'm thankful for:

Keeping all four of my resolutions

Meeting my jam3a buddies, love you;*

Making one really good friend whom I can trust and relate to (R;*)

Advancing on the spiritual level

Accepting everything about myself

Eventually liking jam3a

Becoming more open to different people and respecting strange ideas

Knowing that I will be able not only to live, but also be strong in extreme situations

There's loads more. So, thank you God for bringing all of this into my life and giving me the space to thrive personality-wise.

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I've been told by a friend whom I care for and respect very much that I'm too trusting and that people will take advantage of me because I'm too nice. For those of you who know me, what say you?

Singing in the Rain

Upon her request, ways for Sou's husband to send her back to where she came from:

1. Change the locks and leave her things on the doorstep with a note that says: LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU PSYCHOTIC WOMAN!

2. Leave her on her family's doorstep in a cage with a note that says: Because I was too nice to kill her..

3. Bring over to her parents with her hands tied and duct tape over her mouth saying, "I'm sorry. I couldn't get myself to stab her."

4. Add glass walls to the house and laugh every time she walks into one.

5. Break her Axis of Evil DVD into a gazillion little pieces purposely but pretend it was an accident.

6. Prevent her from listening to Mika and Savoretti.

7. When introducing her to other people, "This is Sou, my wife." Then whispers (audible), "She adds coffee to her sugar, that's why she's a bit loopy in the head."
8. Criticize her hair, her shoes, her fashion sense, the stickers on her wallet, her gay friends, and tell her she's a racist and hypocrite in one breath ON HER BAD DAYS.

9. Insist that she should be on a leash.

10. Force her to sit through opera after opera.

I'm sure there's loads more ways, but I could only come up with these for this post;p.. AND I LOVE YOU;**

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

*Insert Question Mark*

So...

How do YOU see me?

Am I tall? Do I smile a lot? How do I walk? Am I evil? How do you guys perceive the person behind this blog?

P.S. For those of you who know me personally or other than bloggerly, don't ruin it;p

Jingle Bells

After Fast Lane, Swair, and Chika wrote, my turn to express my anger on this topic has come...

RACISM

No one, and I literally mean NO ONE, has the right to feel superior to others. We are all equal. There is no sense, no logical explanation, for a sense of superiority over others. I don't care if you're rich. I don't care if you're royal. I don't care if you have some kind of sacred ancestors. I don't care if you're pretty. I don't care if you come from a first world country. I don't care about your background. I don't care what you had to do to become you. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. You and I are the same. Period.

Whether a citizen or an immigrant in a country, one deserves equal treatment. I am appalled by the thoughts expressed by fellow humans on other fellow humans. The stories are too many. If anyone should put themselves in any other person's shoes, this the situation. Imagine yourself belittled. Imagine yourself as an inferior being. Imagine yourself thought of as a mere form of life. Imagine. How would that feel? Pleasant, yeah?

I won't blame any second or third party for this. I blame the racist for being a racist. You did this to yourself. Don't flip the script or try and find some other excuse. You did it to yourself. Understood?

This needs to be stopped. Kids are being brainwashed at school. Adults are being kids because of the brainwashing they experienced in their childhood. And you know what? Young adults are confused because they do not want to believe the brainwashing...

I have to give credit when credit is due. Thanks to my jam3a buddies. You create the balance in my life. Where there is injustice based on race, you guys understand it and become the epitome of just the opposite. Thanks for being that way. Really. I applaud you for being some of the most open, mature, logical, and intelligent people I know when it comes to these issues. I love you for opening my eyes to a better world. Now, spread it:)

That pivotal moment..

Reminds me of A/The Rake's Progress, Peter Grimes/"The Borough", etc.

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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Onto the issue that's been at the back of my head for a while now, people who disagree with my recent post about men. First off, rather than disagree face to face or in a private conversation, I'd rather you comment because the blog is not only for me to be exposed to other people's point of view, but also for other people to follow the argument. Now, I've been verbally attacked by a couple of friends on why I'm against women making the first move. I'm not. I'll clear things up.

I didn't mean that men should always approach women. I'm NOT against women making the first move, but I'm also NOT the kind of girl who would. The reasons are a lot. Some are personal. One of the things that makes a guy "my type" is the fact that he's brave enough to make the first move. I want to know that he likes me enough to make that move. I know it's not easy, so how is it easy for a girl? It's not.. So, if you're a brave girl who can, I support you. If you're shy and demanding, I know how you feel.

This is an attempt to free myself from being attacked around and about that previous post. Don't bite.. Please and thank you?

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The embedding has been disabled for this song. So, here's the [link].

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My Library will be updated soon. Again, you may ask politely if you would like to borrow anything. Make sure I know you personally and that you're the type of person who takes cares of books.

A Little Less Conversation

Like the Elvis song...

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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Anyway, is self-discovery BS?! I, for one, don't think so. A conversation between an acquaintance and I watched by four other people in silence went something like this:


Me: All the books I've read help me in some way... I don't know. I guess I read more for enjoyment than anything else, but on the side, whatever I read affects me somehow..

S: Almost all books that are out nowadays involve self-discovery and finding out who you are.. That's just BS!

Me: But don't you think that you should know who you are?

S: Why does it matter?

Me: Who are you?

S: I'm Flana ElFlaneya. I go to *insert name of school*. I have # brother(s) and # sister(s). I-

Me: Wait. Why are you linking your identity to other things? I mean.. Who are you? is a question that should be answered with an answer not used to answer other questions. *She's confused* Sorry, I mean what you just said is a series of answers to a series of questions like: What's your name? Where did you go to school? etc.

S: Then, what answer should be for the Who are you?

Me: I don't know. I guess it depends on the person. Wai3, a7es ga3ed atfalsaf.

S: Hahahaha, la sij.. Shloun ya3ni?

Me: Madry, yemkin when you know who you are, you'll know what you want from the world. When you answer the question you'd be like: I am a woman who is here to...

S: Makes sense.

Me: Does it?

*Insert laughter*

Me: So, is it still BS?!

S: No, but we're all lost.

Me: I'm not. I know who I am and what I want. I figured that out earlier, thanks to A.

S: Really? Should I go meditate?

Me: Hahaha, madry.. I don't know.

*Conversation shifts to Yoga and Pilates*


I believe that knowing who you are and what you want makes a difference, but is that self-discovery? What is self-discovery? Is it BS?!


I've answered these questions. I want to know what you think. Have your say...

Surrender yourself to dance...or silence

My apologies to Soud for taking so long. It took me a while to finish this book because I've been busy with school. Studying literature equals a big amount of reading. The book is captivating. As a big fan of Coelho's work, you'd think I picked the book because of the author, but that wasn't the case. In the summer holidays, walking down Hamra St. in Lebanon, I spot a bookstore. I walk in, and the sphere of red tangled hair against the midnight blue background caught my eye. I bought the book along with Reading Lolita in Tehran, and my bag switched itself with the bag of the person in front of me. So, I had to go without the books for a couple of days. By then, I had developed a strange reading obsession and started The Devil and Miss Prym followed by Persepolis, Persepolis 2, and The Alchemist. When I came back here, friends lent me books which I like to return asap. I was afraid that the book would be a disappointment after that prolonged desire to read it and after reading so many good books constantly without scratching my head before it. It was lying around on my bedroom floor, and I started. Every time I finish a book, I feel like everyone should read it. After a while, that feeling usually dies out with normal books but lingers with good books. I'm sure it'll linger for this one. Preview! Anybody? No?!

So, what am I so afraid of?

Okay! I hated Poshlust for like 3 full minutes because I felt like it allowed people to invade my thoughts. But now.. I so love him/her all over again and more than before ba3ad! This is my space to be purely me in whatever mood I am. 7ayaty Poshlust.. Randomly, this is really funny:

Anyways, so I'm wondering.. I'm very satisfied with my life (except for one thing). I like who I am. Inshallah it'll stay that way. 7ada el7emdillah.. Now, I feel like there should be more to it. I mean, is that it ya3ni? I'm only 18.. When's the rest going to happen? I used to be scared of turning 35 because by then I'd be pretty much settled. But now, I'm scared of NOW! Seriously, all my goals for the meantime are done. What am I going to do in 2008? It's only a couple of weeks away. This year, I've grown so much (mentally, spiritually, readingly, studyingly, etc.). Next year, QUESTION MARK?! It's freaking me out. Really, I would love to go with the flow, but I have no goals but to pass classes and reach some kind of spiritual satisfaction. That's so shwaya compared to the list of things I want to do every year that has passed. Oh well, I guess I'll come up with something.. or not?

[UPDATE]

A drawing of myself, by Cat. This is not how I look like at all, but it's how she sees me. Thank you;*

Random-NESS

Have you all heard about Q8Books? It's a little book store which sells new and used books. The place is the coziest thing with ground to ceiling shelves lined with books, books, books, and more books! I got dizzy just looking. I wanted to buy almost everything! Heaven.. Oh, and the Christmas theme was cute but not overdone. Stockings, carols, wreaths, etc. Jacob, the guy who works/owns the place is so friendly. I got two books and more to come. I'm definitely going there again. All the information can be found here.

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I've discovered that I cannot sleep well if I miss someone very much;\

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After not being able to find a decent video of "I Think I Love You" by The Partridge Family, I decided to post this one.

Everybody's free to feel good;)

So, I partied last night. In heels, if I may add. It was great. It's funny how when people (or it could be just yours truly) dance, it seems like they are freeing themselves of everything. As soon as I'm done dancing, I feel like I've released all the negative energy. I don't dance in a crazy way, even if the song is really loud and upbeat, but I do feel better once I'm done.

My feet are in pain. I pampered them, but still painful. Oh, and before anyone asks why I danced in heels for four hours, it's because I wanted to look all pretty the whole time. Plus, the dress doesn't look as good without heels.

Now, onto the mini freak shows at the party. What's up with the jumping up and down and calling it dancing? What's up with girls dancing too close to each other? What's up with the yelling every time the smoke machine decides to fart? What's up with the staring and pointing? What's up with the observations on how someone fixes their hair and make up at the mirror? What's up with random people approaching you in a not very friendly way? What's up with people thinking I'm still in high school? What's up with more than one person in the bathroom? What's up with getting the gigglies while alone in the bathroom?

Dancing = Liberation

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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I got this e-mail recently. I had to share it to spite all of the men out there who are too blekh to do anything about themselves.

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Now, men... Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn intosomething acceptable to have dinner with.

I wish men weren't so blind. Do you even have the guts to approach the good apples?

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Partying tomorrow..

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And for ThePurg...

Exclusively Kaifan-ish

[UPDATE]

حَقَرتَ الرُدَينِيّاتِ حَتّى طَرَحتَها وَحَتّى كَأَنَّ السَيفَ لِلرُمحِ شاتِمُ*

This is the only pic (or half of a pic) you people will get to enhance your imagination on Dr. Ya3youni. Yes, she is wearing pink frills, black sparkly lace, and a two piece patterend-on-the-edge beige suit, BUT I LOVE HER! I don't want her to teach me, but she really is the sweetest thing out there. Her laugh cracks me up, "Heeeh!" Yeah, she laughs like that, but wallah it's cute! I've had the pics forever, but I was hesitant on posting. Anyways, end of ramble on Ya3youni. Heeeh..

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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Christmas is in the air. I love the Toffee Nut Latte offered by Starbucks during the season. Why doesn't Santa exist? Wait, I just decided that he does. Santa exists.

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For those who appreciate literature, an excerpt from the conclusion I wrote for my Elyah Abu Mathi research paper. Yes, I, Queen Aicha, wrote an 11 page research paper in Arabic. I'm so proud of myself. Ok, onto Sha3er Eltasa2ul..

خدم إيليا وطنه حين جعل لحزنه على فراق وطنه صدى سمعه الشرق والغرب، وخدم الناس حين تجرأ بكشف التساؤلات التي تدور في فكر كل إنسان قبل النضوج الفكري والروحي وربما بعده، وخدم القراء حين أضاف إلى قصائده أغنية تمتع الآذان وصورة تتخيلها الأذهان وتبتسم حائرة بين الدهشة لغرابة جمال الصورة والإعجاب بقدرة الشاعر للوصف، وخدم الأدب حين تجرأ بالتطرق لمواضيع حساسة مثيرة للجدل الأبدي، فهي مواضيع الصراع الداخلي الذي ليس له نهاية ونتيجته تقوية الإيمان بكل ما يؤمن به المرء. لا أنسى أبدا اكتشاف قصيدة الطلاسم في الصغر...

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El6alasem

Man Ana

LA

And for ThePurg, a metaphorical butterfly;p

*AlMutanabi

What Say You?

Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
abi asafer
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
lol..where 2..?
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
anywhere
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
lol
me 2..
i jst wanna leave hereee
bleee5555555555
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
and when i cm bk, i want2c everyone happy and my uncle back in kuwait
7ada BLEKH!
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
awwww
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
that wudnt happen sa7?
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
nope..
nothn good ever happens
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
*insert shocked face*
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
so dnt keep ur hopes up sweets
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
ur so negative!
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
im not..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
yummaaa
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
im the most optemistic perso ull ever knw
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
i dnt hv my hopes up bs im expecting good2happen always
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
but thats life..
they tell u ina ita a haapy endn fairytalleee..
bs kilaa chithbb
oO always expect good..
that kkeeeps u goin..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
its not a happy ending fairy tale thing
not for everyone
its how u choose to end it
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
true.
bs sometimes u cnt choose wut u want..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
u can always choose wut u want
*insert smile*
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
i dnt thnk so..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
example,
if i decide mn il7een ena i want2b happy, i cn easily do that
i just wnt allow upsetting things2get me, ill just look at the positives
for ex, friend has problems and the next day is his/her bday = s/he will appreciate his/her bday fun more bcuz it got his/her mind off things
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
i guess..
bs still..
i dnt believe in th choosing part..
its fucked up..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
how so?
didnt u choose2b u?
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
well,, i cnt choose wut i want
not becuz i dnt want 2, but becuz itll hurt 2 many ppl i knw ..
n im not willing 2 take that risk..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
im sorry reemy, but 2hell with ppl..
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
so the thing i want most i cnt have..
2 hell with ppl, not when it comes 2 ur family..
?
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
u hv2think of urself b4 u think of anyone else bcuz if ur not satisfied, u wont be able 2b good 2them
depends on the family part.. depends on wut u want that they dnt want u2hv
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
yeah..
well, wuteverrr..
at the end of the day we have 2 live the next day..
it dosnt matterrr..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
at the end of the day, we have to live the next day how we choose to live it
and it does matter darling! wallah it does! try it n it'll flip the script..
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
alaa kareem
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
hey! do u mind if i save n post this?
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
3adi
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
hehe good;p
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
tara walla life is funnyy..
it can be so painful as welll...
oO its tough...
but u knw wut,,
its not that bad..
i mena like,, so much bad happens all the time, but its the little things that keep u going..
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
hmm
ur life is different than mine
•¤‡°RêèémY°‡¤• says:
totalllyyyyyyyy
Aїсна [Dad's Butterfly] says:
hehe

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I believe that life is what you want it to be. If you expect good, good will come. The bad is just there to create a balance, and eventually, it'll pass. You get to choose how you live each day. Basically, everything's in your hands. What do you think?

Have your say..

P.S. Reemy, love you;*

We'd be so less fragile if we're made of metal.

I hate that the people who deserve to be happy the most aren't. If you're going to say that this is blasphemous, say it to yourself because I won't tolerate it! The sweetest kindest most genuine people are "itching" as a friend puts it, while the cruelest meanest most hypocritical are "itch-free"! It upsets me!

This is your life. There's only God's plan, and your plan. Plans that aren't carried out when you want them to be can be carried out later. Everything happens for a reason. No, wait! Everything happens for a good reason. Who you are now is a product of who you were. Nothing bad comes out of something good. I'm rambling, aren't I?

Anyway, to the friend who is "itching", if there's anyone in this world who deserves to be happy and have their dreams fulfilled, it's you. I'm glad God stopped your plans so that I could meet you. You're more than just a ray of light, and I love who you are.

The wish I'm saving for a rainy day: I want you to be happy and have the courage to follow your dreams:)

Happy Birthday, Zooza:)

[UPDATE]

I loved you with a fire red.. and it's staying red!

A Tribute to HAJS

H, J, and S. Do you have any idea how much you guys mean to me? I feel like nothing in my life would be the way it is now without you three.

I love that you accept me the way I am. You guys never try to change it. Even if I screw up and do all kinds of silly crap. You're okay with it, and you actually never see my stumbles as foolish. You find them cute and sometimes mature even. That makes me less harsh on myself.
You, and my mom, are the only people who are completely open to my life. I am never hesitant to tell you anything... And that's why I tell you everything. I'm more myself with you guys than with anyone else in this world because somehow, we overcome all our differences when it comes to dealing with each other.
We prove that opposites attract. If we were put in a room of a fifty girls, people would never guess the four of us would get along as well as we do. We're so different! J, remember the e-mails between London and Liban?
I swear those summer e-mails saved me right before I hit rock bottom during the ugliness of my.. let's call it situation. I was torn between myself and I, and those e-mails really pulled me through. You guys sent words to heal everything that happened, and it worked. We were so close, even when we were all miles and miles apart.
J, I promised you this a while ago. It's here now:) The time is just right. I was looking through my memory boxes last night (Dec. 2), and I found the letters J and H gave me on my 18th birthday, and the little book S gave us all a while ago. Let me remind you:)

"To the most precious girl in the world.. sowalif ib 9af Johar.. AP English, Student Council.. some people may think that your cold, but I think that you have the biggest heart in the world.. you talk about people; you explain every single detail and its so cute how you tishta6ayn.. you go like 'bs, bs, 5ala9! Ma agdar!' lol!, and like you put the tip of your fingers on your head.. How we used to sit on the floor oo entay dayman tig3edeen 3ala chair.." -H

"Well hello there sunshine =D.. im sure we'de be friends for a lifetime. Cuz it would just suck if we stopped being friends.. Plus ana mi3tamda 3alaich ta56ibeenly.. the way u listen, the way u tell a salfa;p.. taking you dancing and drinking all night.. but then I realized that ur opening the letter AFTER ur surprise.. For some reason I feel like I always wana make you feel proud about me.. Your my safe haven.." -J

"A true friend is like the refrain of a beautiful song." -F.Patarca
"The truth is that friendship is to me, every bit as sacred as eternal marriage." -Katherine Mansfield
"True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable." -Dave Tyson Gentry
"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart." -Elisabeth Foley
-Book from S

It's true I don't love a lot of people in my life, but I love you guys more than anything;*

But I feel so A-D-D!

There are many things I will not do again in college.. This is one of them ^! Especially after being told that I look like a drunk 15 year old guy. 7Q, you are forbidden to impose your fashion sense on me from now on;p

Until When?

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A friend just asked me if I'm happy. I am. Except for one thing that would make me absolutely happy, I'm the happiest I can be. I love my life. My parents have accepted who I've become without problems. I have the best friends (HAJS) ever. Opposites do attract. My jam3a buddies are teaching me that the strangest people combinations make the best group of people there is. I love what I'm studying. I love my obsession with books. I love that I am in control of who I let into my life and who I kick out of my life. I'm happy that most people around me are happy.

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The joke on the last comic. Caeser's famous lines: "Et tu, Brute?"

El6alasem, Elyah Abu Mathi

A Dream Within a Dream, Edgar Allen Poe

Please don't stop the music!

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Please, tell me you get it! Because it's funny.. And no one I linked to got it!

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A post of random Literature for a change:)

جئت ، لا أعلم من أين ، ولكني أتيت
ولقد أبصرت قدامي طريقاً فمشيت
وسأبقى ماشياً إن شئت هذا أم أبيت
كيف جئت ؟ كيف أبصرت طريقي ؟
لست أدري !

أجديد أم قديم أنا في هذا الوجود
هل أنا حر طليق أم أسير في قيود
هل أنا قائد نفسي في حياتي أم مقود
أتمنى أنني أدري ولكن ...
لست أدري !

وطريقي ، ما طريقي ؟ أطويل أم قصير
هل أن أصعد أم أهبط فيه وأغور
أأنا السائر في الدرب أم الدرب يسير
أم كلانا واقف والدهر يجري ؟
لست أدري !

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I stand amid the roar

Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand

Grains of the golden sand-

How few! yet how they creep

Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep- while I weep!

O God! can I not grasp

Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But a dream within a dream?

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Any guesses on titles and poets behind these couple of my faves?

(No internet! Don't cheat!)

And Art... Coming Soon!

*مَــنْ ذا يــكـافـئُ زهـرةً فـواحـةً ؟

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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Yesterday, my uncle suggested I marry a rich Shari3a graduate. Funny? Is his wealth going to make him more acceptable ya3ni or what?! I was too shocked to say anything, so I stared back.

The marriage topic is pissing me off more and more. I'm only 18, people. This is too personal for YOU to come and talk to me about. What makes you think you have the right to point out eligible men or send them over? "Don't you want to make your parents happy?", you say. What makes you think I haven't settled this with my parents? Why are you so into this? It's none of your business! How does it affect you?!

Maybe I don't want to get married through the arranged marriages carnival. Maybe I have my mind set on career. Maybe I'm scared of committment. Maybe I don't want to get married at all. Maybe, maybe, maybe.. How would YOU know? You're not my parents. You're not even my friends. Laish el legafa elzayda? Shtaboun? :@

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Elegies are not 7aram. Why are people making up stuff 3ala kaifhum? They think it's religious to make up new 7arams and 7alals. That's godlike, and IT'S NOT OKAY. I've never come across anything that says that we shouldn't read elegies. Nothing which says that if we do, we won't smell ree7at eljanna or viciously burn in hell. Why talk when you have no evidence to support your argument? STOP PRETENDING TO BE RELIGIOUSLY PERFECT. There is always room for spiritual advancement. I pity you!

Same note, a girl mentioned that reading The Witch of Portobello will "ydakhel 3alaich shubhat". Excuse me? No, wait! EXCUSE ME?! She hasn't read the story. Imagine that. If her faith isn't strong enough to handle such stories, then she should stay away from them. That doesn't mean other people should ditch them, too. My faith is strong enough not to be shaken by anything I don't want it to be shaken by. It's all in my hands. Why is she so concerned about my faith? If you wish to advise me, don't speak nonsense. Present something solid enough to convince me (or at least enough to convince an idiot) or LEAVE ME ALONE!

Why do I attract such people? ;\

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T IS COMING IN A FEW WEEKS! :D

*"Kun Balsaman", Elyah Abu Mathi

A virgin tragedy, an orphan Muse

Okay. I decided to finally explain why I've stopped watching TV. I'm hoping this is enough to stop people gasping at my TV resistence.

Yesterday, my best friend's sister was interviewed live on a show. Before she came on, the two presenters were interviewing an old man on a universal organization's goals etc. The interviewed man was reading off cards, mumbling, monotonous, and had this strange sneer/smirk on his face the whole time! Please pretend you're a professional representative of this well-known organization! PLEASE! Oh, and the presenters looked bored. Could you at least pretend to listen to the guy? Nod, do anything! Don't stare at your shoes and fix your hair!

They had a survey on men and shopping. Women were portrayed (by men and women) as shopaholics who do nothing but pull their husbands with them to shopping sprees and spend their money. Shda3wa? Not one person thought there's one man out there who enjoys shopping? Not one person said women are reasonable? How about shopping for things other than clothes and shoes? Books? Movies? Toys? Anything? ;\

The last time I cam across something on TV was a Khaleeji series. It was the last episode. In exactly two minutes the following happens:

Brother presents medical report from hospital to sister's husband that proves sister's ability to conceive babies. Husband realizes that he can't have kids. Wife finds out that husband has a second wife. Husband is shocked because his second wife told him she is pregnant. Wife confesses to brother that she gave her husband all her wealth/properties. Brother threatens husband that he will kill him if he doesn't give back everything he took. Husband tells them that he gave everything to second wife.

Wow? I'm not interested anymore. Not in talk shows, not in series, not in game shows, not in reality TV, etc. Khalas people, I'd rather read and pop in DVDs once in a while.

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WARNING: This might spoil your breakfast/lunch/dinner.

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Heaven only knows what's hidden up his sleeve..

I'm feeling a bit down. I need tissues for my issues (as Bebe would put it). So, I decided to post something humorous and light-hearted.

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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More of Dr. Ya3youni

Understood

prespective -> perspective

doministration -> demonstration

die-lema -> dilemma

Westren -> Western

Arab womans -> Arab women

habben -> happen

"He want to revenge on her"

Uncomprehensive

"...changing the according of politics to map-makers..."

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I'm loving this song today. I listened to it around four times. I love the clip. He's very creative. Thanks, Sou;*

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[UPDATE] I just updated my library, and the quote of the month for next month is early. If you know me personally, you can ask politely if you would like to borrow anything from my dear shelves.

Elision

I hate being kept in the dark. I have the right to know major events in the lives of the people I love more than myself. If I've done so much for you, why not tell me what's happening with you? Yes, even if it's tragic. Is it too much to ask? I can't believe you think it's fair. How is it fair? You did it once, and I explained to you that it hurts. Why do it again? Why do I have to be the last to know? You're not even telling me yourself. Were you planning to simply leave? I'm sorry you feel like I can't handle this. I'm really sorry you feel that way. I'm also sorry I believe in you this much. I didn't expect this. I feel betrayed. You betrayed me. Does it hurt? Because you really did. You betrayed me.

Do you think I have a problem with God's will? I'm not an infidel, you know. I accept fate. I don't accept negative things chosen by us. I can handle anything and everything when it comes to you. I can handle it better when I'm told of its progress. Told by you and not someone else. You shock me into this and you expect me to handle it perfectly? How is that a logical expectation? I'm not saying this to your face because I did that already several months ago. I'm disappointed in you, and it doesn't feel good.

Don't apologize when you know you're going to do it again. I had my hopes up real high after last time this happened. I don't love you like before. It's all different now. Isn't it?

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue.

P.S. If it makes you feel better, I still think it's worth it:)

Siren

I'm back. It was painful. A spiritual nothing. Still thankful.

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This is another why, people. Why do people feel the need to draw people into their beliefs, values, system of thinking, their idea of right and wrong, etc? I have my own set of sub-faiths that make up my bigger faith which includes morality, religion, spirituality, etc. There are things I am not ashamed of, but I'd rather not discuss. For example, I do not believe that talking about religion/spirituality is fruitful.

Sometimes, I express certain spiritual points to prove a point. I find that people are curious to know more. When I avoid saying more than needed to prove my point, I get the strangest reactions. On the plane earlier today, I was reading the newspaper. My two friends were discussing the college elections with a girl (stranger to me, friend to them). The girl asked me why I'm not discussing the topic with them. I told her I just don't believe that I should try and convince you to vote for a certain group. If you didn't vote at all, I would convince you to vote. However, I would never try and convince you to vote for the people I vote for. After that, I avoided a religious discussion. Later, she told my two friends that she didn't like me because I'm not social, lack faith and personality, and look down on people. Wow?

I feel like for people to genuinely support an idea, set of morals, a religion, and so forth, it should come from inside. They should look into it themselves, think it through, apply it to their life, and decide. There is nothing out there that I would support merely because someone told me all its positives. I think that before anything is supported, we should attack it from all side to make sure it stands alone as a pillar of truth.

Again, why do people feel the need to impose everything on everyone so strongly? Why are you an introverted arrogant person if you refuse to discuss certain topics? Why is everything such a show for people to judge? Why?!

It's your choice whether or not you want to see these questions as rhetorical.

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Spiritual Advancement?

On break until Saturday:)

P.S. The "We" stands for Poshlust (2000 hits!) and myself.

Il Penseroso

I wake in the other morning, and I start thinking. I don't know when I get into this mood if my thoughts/internal discussions are ridiculous or deep. So, this is one of those mornings when I go into a trance and think weird stuff.

How do you know that red to other people is the red you see? I mean: I can see the color red, and I call it red. Other people's red could be different from mine. Their red could be my green. So, how come we are so sure that we all see the same colors and call them the same names?

Balderdash!

I hate the 13-16 year old phase of teenage boys;\ It kills me! I love my brother. We have a lot of fun together. He's the sweetest thing in the house. Some days, he is too blekh to handle! To a suicidal degree!

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My jam3a buddies have never seen me in a bad mood. I wonder if it'll scare them? F came up with a hot name for my evil side: Satanicia De Vill. *wiggles eyebrows*

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My mom is going overboard with feeding us. I really am wondering why I'm not fat. The good food in our house is very abundant. These are photos of last night's dinner:

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I couldn't make it to the demonstration against censorship at the Mishref Fairgrounds;(

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HAJS GATHERING!

That cake was a taste from heaven. I took the rest home. Muffy, I hate you! I'm going to get all fat;(

Love HAJS+C;*